Maritzia's · Thoughts

For those of you who have never seen the Weekly Anamnesis (I just found it last week), essentially you are given a word each week that you write about.  I was intrigued and bookmarked it to start following....which is good because this week the word is Follow *grins*.

The truth is, I've never been much of a follower, which is pretty odd considering how much I really want people to like me.  Yeah, I say all the time it doesn't matter what people think of me, but deep down, it really does.  I'm the kind of person who desperately needs approval, especially from those who are important to me.  By the same token, though, I'm also very independent.  Independent enough that I march to my own drumbeat regardless of what people think of me.  So you can see what a terribly conflicted person I am most of the time *laughs*.

It's always been a particular interest of mine, how people deal with those basic conflicts in their personality and in their beliefs.  My sister is a good example.  She loves charismatic church services, but unfortunately doesn't have much in common with the type of people that frequent those places.  She wants to belong to a community of believers, but the people that are drawn to the type of services she likes aren't the kind of people with whom she wants to belong.  At some point, she is going to have to make a choice.  She's tried just trying to get along and keeping her mouth shut, but eventually, she can't stand it, says something totally unacceptable to them and is ostracized for it.  So for years her choice has been nothing.  If she goes to a church and doesn't like the service, she just doesn't get involved.  She hasn't realized yet that the sense of community you may develop can make a big difference in how she perceives and is moved by the service.

As for me, I am just incapable of being a follower.  Even if I start out a follower, at some point I become either a leader or I eventually branch away from whatever or whoever it is I am following.  *laughs* I can't even follow a recipe.  I always end up changing to my own tastes.  I like to experiment.  Maybe that's why my lab grades in chemistry were always low?

My husband sent this article to me last week: http://www.theglobeandmail.com/servlet/story/RTGAM.20060328.gtelectricity28/BNStory/Technology/

I know many people are skeptical about this type of phenomena, but I do think it happens.  I know the electrical fields around our bodies can interfere with electrical devices.  My father, for instance, couldn't wear a battary operated watch.  The batteries would always burn out within hours.  He had an old windup that he wore until the day he died.  I, on the other hand, have problems with computers...at least I used to.  It seems to have corrected itself once my hypothyroidism was properly treated.  But before that, I had all kinds of problems.  A computer that never had problems when anyone else used it, would give me the blue screen of death on a regular basis.  The next computer I had would throw GPFs every time I worked in Excel.  Never did it for anyone else, just me.  The tech guys couldn't figure it out.  They even reformatted and reinstalled a couple of times.  Then, when I started on the thyroid and was feeling better physically, all the computer problems just stopped.  My doctor at the time said he had a number of patients with problems like those.  One turned off street lamps as he passed.  It would go back on after he was past it.  Another one shorted out her lightbulbs.  She had to change the bulbs in her house almost monthly.  So, if our electrical field can effect electrical instruments, why can't their fields effect us?

My husband and I figure that when we get a place of our own, we'll invest the money to clean up the electrical fields in our home.  At the moment, we rent an older home with an antiquated electrical system.  I know there are constant power fluctuations because you can see them in the lights and the computer and TV.  Maybe it's part of why we both have felt so bad during the last couple of years.  Granted, I've had a lot of other things going on as well, but not all of my symptomology is answered by the iron deficiency.